Recently my friends asked me what I want to do next. They knew that I had my ups and downs with social media over the past few years and in asking this question, I decided to reflect on the subject, what I want to do next – what kind of work I should aspire to.
How am I going to rise up and improve my position? Am I going to aim for something more? To be honest, this “What do I want to do next” question made me sweat. But I decided to be honest with myself.
I had a 9 to 6 office job for many years in a row but I moved on from that (that’s a story for another day) and how good that job was, I know I don’t want to go back to it. I worked in an office and ran a Russian-language blog at the same time. Later, I completely retired from office work and completely immersed myself in photography and travel stories.
But the freelance life is stressful. Some months are good and some are terrible, and frankly, I’m not the best person to deal with stress. Due to the political situation between Russia and Ukraine, I had to stop writing a Russian-language blog and I decided to start from scratch by starting this page on the Internet. I don’t know how it can turn out, but I have hope that this site can turn into something interesting.
One way or another, I am trying to figure out what my goals for the future should be and how I will strive towards them. I mean, if all social networks collapse forever, not just in Russia, and no one wants to work with me again, what then? This question keeps me awake day and night and I think about it almost every minute. Ultimately, I don’t want to focus on what I do or my career.
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So often, when I focus on what I plan to do, there is a desire to have more; earn more, live in a bigger house, be able to buy more expensive things. But really I don’t want more. What’s the point of working towards higher earnings and a better job if I end up wanting less? Sometimes I think that actually life in a bigger house will not be happier for me just because of its value.
Why is the ability to acquire more things seen as the ultimate achievement? So instead of focusing on my job prospects, I try to create a pace of life that I’m comfortable with, and to be honest, life then becomes quite easy and enjoyable. I would like to have a house somewhere in the countryside so that I can walk out my door and go straight to nature. I would like my house to be spacious enough for my parents and friends to have a place to sleep. This is what I would like next. And you know what? This goal does not require an impressive income, does not need a flashy resume and outstanding work.
I know that I still need to work and earn money to allow my dream to come true, but work is not the goal. It is a means to an end. This is what I do, but not who I am. I still plan to turn things around this year and try my hand in a new direction, but shifting my focus to a longer-term goal has helped push me beyond. Read related post – How to make inspiration part of your routine.
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